Claire's Journal

First and foremost, men suck. That's all. Needed to get that out of the way.

As for life in general, it's pretty good, although I've done fuck-all work....I thought 3rd year was harder than this? Oh well. Just wait till exams and that impending 'Congratulations, you got a Third'. 

Went into Dundee on Wednesday to meet with the mother, which was quite enjoyable. I got some cool stuff in the H&M sale. The usual me raving about my very minor problems and mother patiently listening whilst probably thinking 'wow, that child is mine?'. I'm really looking forward to Reading Week in just over a week, but unfortunately because I'm A Third Year I probably should use the week for reading. Rather than jetting off to Somewhere Hot like certain fellow students (how the hell can people afford these constant mini-breaks??? Stupid yahs. Ok rant over).

Current Mood: complacent

Hmmm. Today my mother suggested using My Savings (TM) to go somewhere Far Off and Exciting for my Soc Anth Project, and between us we kind of thought up a return to China. Should I? Eek. I never thought I'd go for a long time again but we shall see. It's like 2004 all over again.

Anthropology is done (well for second year anyway). Exam wasn't too bad - probably the worst of my anth exams to date but seeing as I usually get a 2:1, a few points lost would mean a 2:2 and that's still enough for Honours (I hope). After all the kefuffle oer changing my degree, if they didn't let me into Anthropology now I would be screwed, totally and utterly screwed. I refuse point blank to repeat a year. Hmm we shall see.

Still 2 more to go, and it feels like it's over.

10 days till Germania....eeeeeeeeeek.

I am in love with the Ukraine's entry for Eurovision. The main guy was like shiny John.

Revision: 1
Claire and her love of Europop: 0

I love student theatre. Especially when it's Beckett and involves your housemate being in a bin. It's weird, I was thinking how apt it was that I spent Friday watching a play about being trapped in a never ending cycle - it really is how I'm feeling right now. I mean, the Essay From Hell was polished off today after a marathon library session and I don't get even a glimpse of my usual post essay relaxation period, it's straight into exam mode. It feels like the end of 2nd year, and yet there is so much to go. Then again, in 17 days time I'm off to Munich. Weird. Very weird.

Usually if I am making notes for something I write 'Notes' at the top.

Five minutes ago I wrote:

Utmost summary-ness of le Essay for le Social Anthropology except less crazy and sleep deprived




ICH LIEBE KAFFE!!!!!

Arrrrggh why oh why have I suddenly developed a total work-related lethargy? What with the million essays coming up and my first exam being just over 2 weeks away, I really can't afford to be like this. On a happier note I am (almost) officially doing single Honours Soc Anth which will be lovely and I will study interesting things and spend too much time in the library searching through dusty books and start drinking strong coffee and stuff. In a weird way I cannot wait. Also, less than a month till Munchen (I can't do umlauts on this thing).


Might start up a LJ specifically for Germany and cut out all the emotional crap. It's not healthy really. I sometimes think I'm becoming emo. Arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Hounds of Love - The Futureheads

I thought I would post here in order to document my last day(s) as a teenger (*sobs* *reaches for zimmer frame*). It has been rather strange since I came back anyway, the first week was workworkwork and now I have fuck all to do...well I say that, I have stuff due soonish and exams to revise for but the amazing weather just makes me want to lounge about with a good book (NOT a uni related one). The weekend was grand, though...Friday Night boppage followed by lounging in the park reading with ice cream on Saturday. That night we saw the Twelfth Night DVD for the first time and I'm really starting to get excited about the Fringe. Yesterday after rehearsing we decided to have a BBQ which was a lot of fun and involved lots of wine drinkage. Afterwards we ended up watching Snakes on a Plane followed by Snakes on a Train (much better :P) followed by Team America (fuck yeah!). Today has been very lazy too..I got my lab report back (arrgghh) as well as my Latin America feminism essay which I did rather well in :-).Have I missed my calling? Should I have been a Modern Historian this whole time? Possibly, but it's too late to go back.
Tomorrow (aka My Big Day) looks to be fun/alcohol filled.

I've also decided officially that boys (especially one in particular) really are not worth it. Chantal and I are going to become an item. 

Current Mood: chipper

I am eating chocolate and drinking an erotic drink. Oh yeah.

Well, after 3 weeks of stress, emails, phone calls, Wikipedia-ing random places in the middle of nowhere and generally wondering if I should just give up, I finally have a host family. Ladies and gentlemen (if they exist)....I'm going to Germany! A town called Wolfratshausen in Bavaria (near Munich). Yup, I've never been to Germany in my life, speak none of the language (my language skills amount to terrible French and even worse Chinese), and yet I've signed up for 3 months of looking after two young boys (age 5 and 8). The father called last night and he seems really nice, I'm very excited etc etc but there's always that little part of you after a decision like this that's screaming "WHY????!!! Seriously you retard you can't keep running off to random countires for the hell of it!!!!"

I started catching up on Skins (anything to avoid actually working), the Russia one was pretty awesome :o).

Oh and the exam timetable has been unveiled, I'm really chuffed actually; my exams are all nicely spaced out. However, instead of having Psychology first as per usual (hence getting it out of the way) I have it last. Eeep.

Auf Wiedersehen!!

Current Mood: excited

In St Andrews, the first half of semester 1 (before Reading Week) lasts 6 weeks. In semester 2 (before Easter) it's 7 weeks. And you can definately sense the difference. What's worse is that there is NOTHING to do. Every future assignment isn't due till after the break. Everyone is just...blah. Most people have just gone a bit quiet, some are in bad moods, and about half are randomly starting essays that aren't due for weeks simply because of boredom. 
I know once I'm back in Dumbarton I'll just want to be back here again but god I really need a change of scenery. I'm even looking forward to starting my essay on feminism in early 20th century South America (yes I know, it does sound interesting doesn't it? I'm not joking I'm actually sitting with the books on my desk all ready even though I won't be reading them till the break). Oh, and my Anthopology Fieldwork what I'm supposed to do...umm...

'And here we have the ned in his natural habitat. Notice the angle at which he wears his cap. This is a status symbol, meant to signify....'

Er...yeah

Current Mood: blah

I might be going to Austria this summer to work as an au pair. Woo hoo!

Also...essay is done! Now I can lounge around till the holidays.

All in all, rather cheery today :o).

6 more weeks of term to go. That's so terrifying. I'm nearly finished 2nd year. What makes it worse is that I'm not sure I should even be doing this degree. Am seriously considering changing from joint Psych/Soc Anth to straight Soc Anth. Hmmm maybe it's just because Psych is doing my nut in at the moment. I shall see.
Am remarkably calm after last week. Had a horrible moment on Tuesday though (day before Lab report was due) when we were sitting in the Union and I suddenly couldn't breathe and my heart was racing. I thought I was having a panic attack at the time but it went away fairly quickly. Now I'm more complacent and just muddling my way through things. The mood in our house has lifted dramatically and everyone is laughing and joking again (mainly making fun of me but it's progress).
Things with the boy are ok. I should just tell him really but I'm always so awkward, which is silly because boys are simply lower life forms and nothing to be afraid of :o).

Current Mood: peaceful

STUPID STUPID MEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Also, I never thought I'd use the phrase 'I got my imaginary boyfriend pregnant'.

It's past midday. I'm in bed. No intention of getting up soon. I reeeaaally should be doing statisics stuff right now. Bleurgh.

On a lighter note, last night of PMJB and after party tonight, with the ball tomorrow. Yay.

Current Mood: relaxed

It is 18.23 and I am ratted.

I finished things with Eustace. There are many reasons for this.

a) He lives in Benin, could be hard over the summer.
b) I'm sure he's still in love with Alan.
c) He appears to have multiple personalities.
d) No real motivations in life - kite flying for beginners isn't going to get you very far.
e) I care for someone else
f) He doesn't actually exist.


PS - Isabel, if you fancy making any alterations to his profile his email is shire@st-and.ac.uk and his password is hedwig1. I like to think of him as a group effort.

PPS - I think I need to have a psychiatric exam.

Current Mood: giggly

Mwahahahahahahaha

Singles Awareness Day (also known in some circles as 'Valentine's Day') does odd things to a girl.

I was walking back from Psych today and it was all cold and wet and horrible and out of nowhere a man from some promotional thing handed me a chocolate chip cookie.
Swings and roundabouts.

Current Mood: cheerful

Well, in my opinion Alex's Peter Pan themed 21st was a success. It was very stressy getting the house ready but Chantal was amazing and organised everything. The party itself was great, although I spent most of it having a heart to heart with a friend of mine. It was nice being able to get some stuff out in the open anyway. I didn't drink a huge amount, which makes a change from our usual house parties.
It's pissing it down outside so I'm warmish and snuggly in the house with my big jumper on.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Kelly Clarkson (I know, I don't care)